I wanted to suspend time, to "still life"
with a paintbrush and canvas.
I painted humble objects that I associate with an artist colony in
Vermont
and my time there. These are my mementos.
I want to obsessively look at one thing until there is nothing new
to discover.
Painting old bottles, I began to see light as if for the first time.
Light and
beauty have this in common: they are both fleeting. I want to catch
it.
I struggle to remember a childhood that began in the Far East. I fear
that
once I lose those memories, I will lose my childhood for good. In
photos of
children I do not know, I see universal themes: longing, loneliness,
bliss.
It is only with passage of time that I revisit a painful past. You
can't
change the past, but out of many shed tears I found I could create
art,
something full of hope, healing and possibilities.